2015 was without a doubt the most eventful year of my life- graduating college, meeting and falling in love with (and getting engaged to) my best friend, planning a wedding and looking ahead to an international move to the UK. Great! Perfect!
But 2016 is the year that that looking ahead, those plans- they all have to be carried out. And at 2 am, it overwhelmed me.
I’m a textbook stockpiler and the middle of the night is prime time for remembering all the things you’re facing at the same time: visa applications, student loan debt, wedding planning, and moving to a different part of the world.
From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
This was where I was emotionally- overwhelmed. But it wasn’t where I was spiritually- praying for guidance and resting in the perfect plan God has for my life.
So as I went to read my Bible this morning, my heart was still heavy- burdened with the weight of challenges that the year holds. And I was trying to carry that weight myself.
Until BOOM! Psalm 98 was dropped in my lap:
Oh sing to the Lord a new song,
for He has done marvelous things!
His right hand and His holy arm
have worked salvation for Him.
What a joyful song! “Let the rivers clap their hands; let the hills sing for joy together.” That kind of language doesn’t accompany a furrowed brow and heavy heart- The Lord has done SUCH marvelous things!
What incredible experiences are ahead of me in 2016! In the process of worrying, I forgot about thanksgiving. I forgot about God’s plan for my life. Yep, I’m still pretty intimidated by the year ahead, but happy to be reminded of the blessings, joy and peace that come from being a child of God.
So I spent the rest of the morning enjoying some of my many blessings, with such joy in my heart. Playing with my little nephew, listening to good music, looking at pictures of Iyanu and I, and remembering that while the future is scary and unknown to me, it’s not to my Heavenly Father.
So in the months ahead- the planning, the marrying, the moving, the adjusting- I’m going to make a more concerted effort to stop and smell the roses.
As Ferris Bueller says
: “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.”
Here’s to not missing out on life, trusting the Lord, and enjoying the ride in 2016.